Ten-Four...Breaker, Breaker?!?!

Happy Spring, err….whatever.  Whatever season this is.  I’m not quite sure.  Happy April!  How ‘bout that?!  Pretty sure we’re all suffering from seasonal affectiveness disorder by now…

Here I go, about to sound like a broken record, but life has been crazy lately.  Crazier than normal….or maybe it’s just the new normal.  I don’t know.  But I don’t like it.  I’m finding myself staring at my calendar, a mounting list of things to do, places to be, appointments to make (more things to do)….all on top of everything else…you know, working full-time and then some, being a mom to two little nut-jobs (thanks, Auntie….we love this term), holding down the fort, aka the house, trying-but-desperately-failing to be a good wife…….sometimes I feel like I’m sinking.  And I’ll just get this out there right now, NO, I’m not depressed.  I would not be afraid to admit to that.  I’m just trying to stay afloat in this pool of “stuff” that keeps pouring in……….more bills to pay, more projects at home, more decisions about kids/daycare/preschool, more GUILT about everything that I just can’t seem to get a handle on.  It’s overwhelming.  There.  I said it. 

Perhaps this is just life now.  But I wish it were simpler.  I wish it were less cluttered and chaotic.  I wish there wasn’t this NEED to be in every single place that you are ever invited to be…..and this NEED to fill every square of our calendars for the summer months with obligations.  The pressure…agggghhhhh!  Since when does “non-stop-busy-for-months-on-end-on-top-of-everything-else” = happiness??????

**Note:  I mean no offense to anyone that I have PLANS with this summer.  I’m just be honest about life right now.

Anyway….the point of this is not for anyone to feel sorry for me.  I’m venting.  Maybe you are in the same boat.  It’s not a very happy boat, so I’m sorry if you are here with me!  I’ve got a game plan to turn things around and it starts now.  Time to re-prioritize life.  Waste less time doing things that mean nothing.  Spend more time (uninterrupted) with my babies and my hubby.  Maybe even give some time to MYSELF…for me.  A weekly yoga class.  Time to read a book.  Craft.  Who knows????  For me, the most obvious 1^st step in making more time is disconnecting.  And so I’m going to…ya’all know I love me some social media.  But I’m saying good-bye for now.  To see how things go without the distraction, without the phone always in my hand--ready to snap a "shareable" photo at any God-given moment is not how I want to live my life.  My plan is to spend this early spring and summer cherishing my sweet little family…chasing frogs, jumping off the dock, snuggling by a bonfire, squeezing in a date night, praying that God decides to save Trav’s brother and cure him of his cancer (but in the meantime making lots of new family memories with him)…away from my phone, away from Facebook, away from the constant connection to the rest of this crazy universe!  I just want to re-set and re-commit to my family and myself.  It's been a long time comin'...

This is going to be my new motto for life!

 So...friends and fellow mamas, XO from me!  I'll miss all your updates but I'm off on a special mission!  I hope you all know that sometimes we just have to give ourselves a break.  This job of being a mama....it's tough, so tough.  Like, fall-on-the-couch-in-a-pile-of-tears tough.  I know, I did that last week and probably the week before.  But it's the single most important job on this planet!  YOU'RE DOING GREAT!!!!!!