Baby, baby...where are you???

Another week goes by and still no baby.  Patience is running low.  My house is clean.  Hospital bags are packed.  Laundry is done and put away.  Bills are paid.  The nursery is ready.  I’m ready…and now we WAIT.  Ugh!  This has got to be the WORST part! 

In the back of my mind I keep thinking about IF I had opted for the repeat c-section, I’d be at the hospital today, meeting this little man.  Sounds tempting, no?!

If you hadn’t guessed, no new news at my doctor appointment on Friday.  No progression made.  His head is still “engaged”…and that is painful enough.  I’ve been having an increased amount of contractions, but obviously nothing that is getting me any closer to meeting this little man.  I spent the weekend relaxing, cleaning, nesting, bouncing on my exercise ball….the usual!  And here we are…boo to another Monday morning at WORK!!  I would much rather be at home, or better yet, at the hospital. 

In the event that baby Jax does not make his appearance in the next few days, the plan is to finish off the work week (which is just Monday-Wednesday) and then call it quits for 12 weeks.  If it were solely up to me, I’d probably keep working right up until the very last second…but Travis is getting a bit worried about me being away from home these days.  He thinks that when women go into labor it is like an instant gush of water everywhere, that I’m instantly in terrible pain, and that I have absolutely no fore-warning of all of this happening……basically, a big old natural disaster.  And I suppose it could be that way, but highly unlikely!

My next doctor appointment is this Friday.  I’ll be 39 weeks and 6 days…………..hoping something happens before then, but we’ll see.   

It's pretty bad when even Marley senses my frustration.  As I buckled myself into the car Sunday morning, I let out a big sigh (sigh of relief that I made it, because getting out the door and into the car and situated is no easy task these days).  All of a sudden I heard another big sigh from the back seat and turn around to find Marley smiling at me.  She totally copied me.  I took another deep breath and let out another sigh, and sure enough, she looks at me, smiles, and says, "Uggghhhhhhhhhhh!"  My sweet baby girl!!!  Gotta love her!

Happy Monday…….sigh! 

Ready, Set, Go!!! Fingers Crossed!

I’m trying to have patience, really, I am.  Patience to get me through these last 12 days, which I suppose could be more than 12, though I really HOPE not!!  I’m working on “trusting” in the fact that my body knows when it’s time to give birth, and that there is nothing I can do to make it happen any earlier.  Yet still, every day I wake up wondering if today will be the day.  I over-analyze every little sign and symptom that labor may be starting.  I convince myself that yes, today I feel a little bit different, so that MUST mean something is about to happen.  Crazy what the mind can do, but all I can say is that I’M READY!!!  COME OUT WHENEVER YOU WANT TO LITTLE GUY…THE EARLIER THE BETTER!!

Sister and Mom to the rescue this past weekend…I’ve been struggling these last few days.  Tired and dealing with a sick baby…makes for MORE EXHAUSTION!  So, my sister called Friday morning and asked if she could come pick up Marley and take her for the weekend, bless her :)  As if her house isn’t crazy enough with 3 kiddos!  I had a wave of guilt wash over me for letting Marley go, because the weekends are really all I get with her!  I felt bad sending her off to stay with someone else, but knew that I NEEDED a break and rest was the only way I was going to get better.  Turns out that having a child-free weekend really was a good thing…..at my doctor appointment Friday afternoon, they diagnosed me with a sinus infection and ear infection, prescribed me a very low dose of antibiotics, and sent me home with strict orders to REST!  Impossible to do with an almost 2 year old!

Auntie Heidi came to get Marley at around 6:00pm on Friday night, and she was all happy smiles taking off in a car packed with her cousins!  As for me…I was actually able to sit and do nothing, which I haven’t done in forever!  We ordered pizza, made a fire, and watched Gold Rush (Trav can’t get enough of this show).  Unfortunately, the night time nausea kicked in and all I could eat was 1 piece of cheese bread……but hey, I’m trying not to complain.  I got a good night sleep, woke up and watched about 4 hours of The Rachel Zoe Project marathon while drinking coffee (can you say lazy), and took a nap!  We ran to Ikea later that afternoon and were able to pick up the last few things we needed for the nursery, and then stopped at Champs for buffalo chicken fingers (craving them)!  We had every intention of actually watching a movie for once, but we ended up hanging out in the living room, watching mindless TV in front of the fireplace…Travis working on a bid for a side job and me, doing yoga stretches on the floor, trying to coax baby to “come out” already!!

My mom and Scott drove Miss Mars back home to us on Sunday morning and I was SO HAPPY to see her.  It was weird being at home all weekend and seeing her bedroom empty!  She was happy to be reunited with her toys and Sasha……and her DADDY!  She’s obsessed with Travis!!  The rest of the day on Sunday was spent napping, running errands, stocking the cupboards/fridge with groceries, finishing up laundry, putting the finishing touches on the nursery……..I even got my hospital bag packed and the infant car seat is ready to go!  Feeling prepared but my mind still races with more tasks to add to my to-do list!

Back to my doctor appointment…it was uneventful, to say the least.  No weight gain, which she said is normal in the last few weeks of pregnancy.  And nothing else is going on in terms of dilation/effacement.  Baby’s head is “engaged” in my pelvis, and that is about it.  I’m measuring 40 weeks and she sent me away with my prescription and a tip to relax, because this could be my last weekend without baby.  Oh please, let that be true!!

A rare, bare-belly photo...me and baby Jax at 38 weeks:

I’m hoping this week will be the week…….and I don’t have any plans made, just in case.  I’m taking Friday off, mainly because the weeks are just getting to be too long for me.  I also go back to the doctor that day, but fingers crossed I’ve already checked into the hospital (haha)!  I’m planning on taking some photos of the nursery this week, and I’ll post them so that everyone can see where baby Jax will be sleeping!  Just can’t wait to meet this little guy!

Wishing you all a great week…….it’s almost Thanksgiving, I cannot believe it!  Today I’m thankful for my family (especially for the help my mom/sister provided this weekend…..I appreciated the break so very much), and even more THANKFUL for my wonderful husband who works harder than ANY MAN I know and is truly the glue that keeps our family together and moving ahead!  How lucky I am to have him in my life and for our children to be blessed with such a wonderful male role model.  I can’t imagine my days without you, Travis!!