More God was exactly what I needed in my life. I didn't need Him to GIVE me things...material things and the like. I needed Him to sit quietly with me in a dark room as I rocked Jax back to sleep for the 100th time in the middle of the night. I needed Him to reassure me that everything would be ok. And that if it wasn't ok, to teach me that this is all a part of His plan anyway. I needed Him to guide me in raising my children with as much love that I possibly can. To guide me through my most difficult days of motherhood and to let me know that I'm doing alright. I needed Him for a million different reasons and when I opened up to let Him in, He has never once failed me.
I started following a website/blog called SheReadsTruth. It is an online community of (mostly) women who come to their page daily to read God's word. I'd say it's an online Bible Study, but in a very beautiful, easy-to-follow format. One of the verses we studied this week was Joshua 1:9 and it could not be more perfect for how I'm feeling.
"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go."
How much better do you feel having read that? I mean, to KNOW that He is with you wherever you go. Hard times. Through tears. And laughs. And heartbreak. Through your birth and your death. I think it's pretty cool. And it makes me happy to know that God always has my back...because I certainly can't do all that I do without Him.
I'm not trying to sound like I've gone for a ride on the Bible banging crazy train...but you know what? There is no harm in letting Him in to your life. Since I have put more of my trust in Him, I've been a happier mama. I've had more patience. I've kept my "reactions" in check because my mind is turned to Him and He is LOVE! So that is exactly what I want to be...especially for my kids! And it's baby steps...I started talking to Him more. Believing in Him more. Giving Him my problems. Attending worship services. And this blog/bible study thing over at SheReadsTruth is honestly eye-opening. Really because it helps me so much to actually UNDERSTAND what it written in the Bible. To put names to the stories and to be led through guided prayer...because let's face it...prayer and meditation and confession don't come easily to everyone. They don't come easily to me.
So...I've been working the last 6 months at being a better person. Letting go of things that I just can't control. Realizing that kids will be kids. Striving to always put the work in to my marriage and not get sucked in to the quick-sand that is parenthood! We've been BUSY!
We celebrated the kids birthdays in December (Jax) and January (Marley)...we got away to Mexico for a week in February (just me and Travis)...and we've made significant progress on the basement remodel, slated to be complete by fall! Just picking away at this little house of ours...
Wishing you all a happy weekend! Snow is melting. Sun is shining! Life is good!
XO!
Stevie
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